confusing de fish =p

Thanksgiving :o)

God's promise came to pass on the 22nd may 07 :o)

not so long ago, was feeling quite down and disheartened at not being able to find a job after leaving MOA for so long...most of my colleagues ve already found jobs in large companies

at times i wonder if it was silly to reject de offer by de head office, but i remember de voice i heard in me to move on, that God has something better in store for me ... i juz need to step out in faith ...it didnt make sense to let go of an available opening but past experiences has taught me tat i m always more blessed when i obey God & i didnt want to lose out de greater blessing that God has in store for me :o) so i rejected head office offer much to de surprise of my bosses (who r v nice pp) and to my own too...
it was so tough trying to get my head and my heart to be in sync (de spirit is willing but de flesh is weak gee)

thank God for dear dear who has been a great encourager & helper, who sent me jobs listing everyday for me to apply, for being so patient & comforted me that it was ok to rest for awhile ^.^

now looking back de short break was a blessing in disguise,
it gave me more time to prepare for de wedding :)
(which should be de priority in comparison to a job)

during de jobless period,
i actually had de chance to discover more about myself...
how i had valued myself based on de job i ve,
how lost i felt wout a job, which revealed to me that i hadnt really place my sense of worth & security in God... :(
how an uninteresting, unmotivated life i ve wout a job...
(i didnt know wat to do with my free time, much to de envy of my dear dear haa)

how small i actually felt in my own eyes
when i looked at the requirements of advertised jobs and my lack of experience in many of the areas, i begin to feel tat i wasnt as good as de others in de field, ...almost to de stage of deression ...i wonder if i should just give up IT and do someting else

thank God for jasmine, a wonderful cousin who helped pray for me & reminded me that an idle mind is de devil's playground...tat i so need to hang on to God & His Word despite all de "troubles" of life...

i started to be more serious in my job finding, went to de agents w rach, though all mentioned tat my resume was gd, but nothing concrete or interviews were being arranged...

i remembered crying out to God during cell's pnw, why isit tat though many ve assured me tat i was gd, yet still i couldnt find a job..wat is wrong w me??? why hasnt i found a job yet...

God's reply to my cry was almost instanteous, He impressed upon my heart these words..it is not going to be by your wisdom or knowledge or capability tat u r going to find a job, it will be ME providing a job for you...

wow!!! i was juz awed by God's reply...i realise tat all along, i had trusted in my own abilities, capabilities to find a job..God was teachin me to trust in Him

Zechariah 4:6
So he said to me, "This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: 'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,' says the LORD Almighty.

my down trodden spirit was immediately calmed by God's reply...
no more questioning, cos i ve heard God and He has given me His promise :o)

i actualli didnt realli try to look for job after tat cos was trying to concentrate on wedding preps (& since God said He was going to be de one who will provide =P )..

then one fine day, an ex-colleague sms me, another yahoo me asking me if i was interested in a job lobang..

to cut de long story short...

i submitted my resume, was called for an interview,
committed all de boos boos & taboos in de interview,
yet i got de job!!! in a BIG company!!! how amazing is that!!!

i was trying to find a job for de longest time, on my own & i failed..
i didnt seek for this job, yet it found me ;o)

how else could this ve happened except by de hand of God???

i was reminded of God's promise to me tat cell nite,
"I will give u a job" ....i was totally totally awed & amazed...
God has been so gracious to me once again ^.^
i am just so thankful to Him tat i want to start blogging it down,
every good tings tat He has done for me, in my life heee

so yes!!! i ll be starting work again on 1st June 07!! yippe!! heee

^.*

er ...

a different way of looking at things =)

fav song @ de moment ^.*

简单爱 ^.^ *.*

说不上为什么
我变得很主动
若爱上一个人
什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布
对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到
我现在的感受

河边的风
在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手
一阵莫名感动
我想带你
回我的外婆家
一起看着日落
一直到我们都睡着

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧
唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活
我爱你你爱我

想简!简!单!单!爱...
想简!简!单!单!爱...

周杰倫

God's recipe :o)

知己知彼，百战百胜 :o)

Summary

ESTHER POH, your responses indicate that you are a very friendly, warm, and calm individual. You use persuasion to influence people and do not make unnecessary demands upon them. If you are called upon to delegate both authority and details, you do so with ease. When you are dealing with an idea or project, you prefer to focus on its overall substance rather than on its specific details. Too much structure or too many rules is not appealing to you. Since you enjoy interacting with people, it follows that you are highly effective in activities involving them.

Communication Style

ESTHER POH, you have strong social skills and are excellent at quickly establishing rapport. You enjoy talking to people and do so with enthusiasm and spontaneity. Your style of fast, lively expression is both engaging and effective. You are a fluent speaker who expresses thoughts quickly, optimistically, and persuasively.

Also, ESTHER POH, you use a diplomatic tone in order to work peacefully with people. You do not intimidate others and, in turn, you do not appreciate verbal intimidation.

You enjoy talking and can put people at ease. You use a fun, indirect style of communication. You are people-oriented and can easily relate with another person's point of view.

ESTHER POH, you are a natural team player. You readily delegate authority, and you embrace training. You do not care to be involved with too many technical details. You let others set game plans, priorities and time frames.You function well when you are allowed a lot of people-interaction. You would rather talk about details than write them down. You enjoy being the focus of attention.

Leadership Style

Leadership Style: Persuasive You perform your leadership role by using your fine ability to interpret people's actions and dialogue, and then by persuading them to do things your way. You like to build team spirit and rely upon team decisions. You develop your subordinates, and you delegate both authority and details. You actively promote change and like to find new ways of reaching goals.

Conscientiousness

You may tend to work more diligently at those tasks that are most interesting to you. You may place more emphasis on satisfying your personal needs than on achieving traditional goals and accomplishments. It is possible that personal anxieties or emotions may have a negative impact on your work. You may prefer to work at your own pace, rather than follow someone else's fixed schedule.

Motivational Needs

ESTHER POH, you tend to be motivated by a great deal of interaction with people, and by identifying with a prestigious organization with a good public image. You desire opportunities to make more money for yourself, or to improve your status within the organization. You are motivated by praise, public recognition, and by acceptance. You are most productive when working as a team player, and when you are liked by others.You tend to be demotivated if your territory or opportunity is reduced in size, or if you are not allowed a significant amount of people-interaction or teamwork. Insufficient recognition from management and/or peers can also affect your motivation. You can be demotivated by a perception of not being personally liked, and by not being invited to meetings with peers.

Primary Motivators

• A lot of interaction with people.

• Meeting new people and making friends.

• Opportunities to make more money and improve status.

• Being a team player within the organization.

• Praise and public recognition.

• Identifying with an organization that has prestige and a good public image.

• Awareness of what is going on in the organization.

• Acceptance and being liked by others.

Primary Demotivators

• You perceive you are not liked.

• You are not invited into meetings with your peers.

• Your territory, (opportunity) is reduced in size.

• You feel you are not part of the team.

• You do not have enough people contact.

Emotional Intelligence

ESTHER POH, your responses indicate that you tend to understand the emotional makeup of others, and to accurately sense what other people are feeling. In addition, you are able to attune your own style to the emotional reactions of others. Because you find it easy to see the world from another person's perspective, it is likely that you associate with a diverse group of people.

http://dintl.drakeprofile.com/intl3/index_dl.cfm?OfficeID=417

a very interactive book club ... haaa =p

de secret is ??? ... a secret haa =p

Deuteronomy 29:29
The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children for ever, that we may follow all the words of this law.