de secret is ??? ... a secret haa =p

Deuteronomy 29:29
The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children for ever, that we may follow all the words of this law.

a pic that reminds me of my dearest family n all de closest frens i ve =)

Thank God for all of You !!!

Thank U for alzix being around !!!

U r de Best !!! ^.^

a pic that reminds me of the Heavenly Father & i :o)

I love You Dad !!!

U r de Very Best !!! muach!!! BIG hug !!! hee

save de earth !!!

yeah!! i am normal haa =p

You Date Like a Woman

According to studies on dating, you date like a woman. You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling. A mental and emotional connection always comes first for you. And rushing the physical stuff is likely to turn you off. You're highly selective when it comes to dating, and some may say you're too picky. You know what you want, and when you find it, you're ready to commit.

Do You Date Like a Man or a Woman?

My Learning Style - woo i never knew tat =p

You Are a Kinetic Learner

You learn best by doing, and you have a talent for complicated, physical tasks. You excel at athletics, drama, and fixing things. You would be an excellent Olympic athlete - or a Broadway star!

What's Your Learning Style?

My Five Factor Personality Test - quite accurate :)

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is low. You're a pretty conservative person, and you favor what's socially acceptable. You think that change for novelty's sake is a very bad idea. While some may see this as boring, many see you as dependable and wise.

The Five Factor Personality Test

rush to rest ...

Come to Me [Jesus], all you

who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened,

and I will cause you to rest.

[I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls.]

~ Matthew 11:28 ~

Wedding Invite :o)

upset :(

i m upset w vista!!! it looks cool but it juz doesnt work well w others, not even w members fr its own family...ggrrrr...
when did they launch it when de world is not ready for it yet!! ahh...help!!!

it's so difficult getting it to work w de existin hardware n softwares...even w all de drivers update
n it wouldnt allow me to save files, sayin tat admin rites are required wen i m logged on as de administrator!!! cant help feeling tat it tries to b clever n do too much tat it feels stupid :S

i rem xp was so much easier..literally plug n play...why is vista such a pain to configure???
well...to b fair, de improvement over xp wld b its quickness in ending tasks tat has hanged..not sure if tats gd or bad news..???

perhaps i shld seriously consider switchin to penguin or apple
realli hope to get my "trinity" up n running well soonz... :( i feel incapacitated wout my comp properly configured..

de frustration of tryin to get it to work properly...makes me juz wan to give up n zzzz...aggrhh...help :S

reflections fr a wake...

juz came back from meng's papa wake...

actualli dun realli know meng nor his papa well but we juz wanted to go support mitch n meng..

my impression of meng last time used to be tat he was a v non-serious, jokey kind of guy..was actualli quite worried for mitch..not sure if meng was a dependable guy...haaa...
but had a v different feelin 2wards him after we went to hospi to visit his dad the time when he was sick n still alive...

fr mitch sharing w us n observation at de hosp...discovered tat meng is actually a v responsible, v homely n fillial son, who doesnt give up lovin n caring for his dad who was paralysed n always had to be given much attn bcos of his medical condition...
such a carin n fillial son is hard n rare to find...underneath de "not seriousness"....i saw de fighter spirit n carin side of him tat day...could tell tat he really loved n cared for his dad alot alot...

according to mitch, he wld come fr wk each day, dropped his bag n go straight to check on his dad, to check on his parameters to make sure he was ok....chit chat w him (though his dad couldnt realli articulate except make groans bcos he was probably feelin uncomfy)..many a times, meng n family wld ve to guess (by trial n error) wat was causing his dad discomfort n they wld do anythin (eg shift his sleepin position) to make him more comfy...n his dad would actually calm down upon seein meng...

heard fr mitch tat meng papa was actualli a very strong spirited man too...tat his last words to meng (many yrs ago when he had a stroke n had to be operated, he cldnt realli talk anymore aft de op) when he was bein wheeled into op rm was...i will be strong...his dad was a fighter n he had "tong" so long..despite his imobility, sickness n all...i ve seen so many others whom simply give up on themselves n grown so independent on others n literally juz waitin for death to come...

so strong is the human fightin spirit to live n de ability to hang on bcos of family's love...truly i see love exhibited in de family ....in health n in sickness :)

i was realli amazed by meng patience n understandin of his father's needs though de dad cldnt really speak....to see him kissed his dad half sunken skull...i was deeply moved n secretly wished in my heart tat i had de same passion n compassion 2wards my parents (esp my dad) ..i certainly wasnt as carin to my dad as meng when he was sick in hosp (guilty)

after de visit, went home, occasionally tot of meng papa, wonderin if he was ok oradi but didnt went to visit him again...

was gettin ready for church dis morn, suddenly got a msg fr mitch tat meng papa has passed on...was sad n at same time worried abt how meng n his mum wld take it (cos dey were v closed to de dad)...it has been a tiring time for them...3 deaths in de family within such a short period...it is really not easy...

durin de wake, got to chat w mitch alittle, caught up on de old times, discuss abt venues for holidays n honeymoon..it was nice catchin up..enjoyin each other's company n supportin one another...

had alot of reflections...i was shocked to realised how unfeeling i ve bcome 2wards death of pp...one doesnt realli care much or feel de pain these days (cos it juz seem normal)...unless it happened to frens or closed one..even then, after awhile..de 'unfeeliness' creeps back...
God ps forgive me for de hardness of heart...de lack of passion, sorrow when i hear or see or know pp passing on wout knowin u...

suddenly realised & was convicted..tat...how much i ought to pray for de move of God in my life n in my family n frens lives...
tat i ought to treasure my folks at home more, not to take de pp ard me for granted tat dey wld always b there, not to tink tat there wld alwiz be "another" opportunity to share w them christ...cos there might never be...

i always feel de greatest sorrow.... is not de passing of someone i love or know...but tat he/her had passed on w/out knowing christ...cos tat wld mean i ve lost them for eternally... tat i wld never ever see them again...

tat tot is unbearable...n too painful to bear...de one time i felt tat pain...was in a dream tat i dreamt wen i was studying in down under..i had repeatedly asked God if i shld come back to sing or stay on aus...(every part of me wanted so much to stay in aus)
i prayed n prayed but for v long God didnt ans...He did not speak to me thru lightning n thunder..but He gave me a dream....i m dreamer haa...=p

i dreamt tat my dad actually died..i was home n i saw his tablet...he had died a non christian..
i rem i felt so so sad, so much sorrow tat i juz wept n wept..like i can never stop..
i felt so sorry tat i didnt get to see him for de last time b4 he passed on,
i was sorry tat i didnt share christ w him tat he didnt know God n he died.tat i had lost him forever...i regretted tat i didnt had de chance to tell him i love him n i was sorry we cldnt experience de lovin relp of father n daughter...i called him earlier next mornin juz to say "i love you dad" tink he was pretty pleasantly surprised to hear tat fr me...haaa

before de dream...i never tot i had realli loved my dad...i always tot i loved him cos i ve to ..cos he is my father..but after i woke up fr de dream...i realise i do love him deeply...n God ans to me was to come back to sing...cos i ve to share w my dad n loved ones!!!

i obeyed n believed w all my heart..my dad wld b saved!! he has to be!! i held God to His promise.. in Acts 16;31 "Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved—you and your household." i dun noe why, but God juz gave me tremendous faith to believe in tat & God is faithful n de promise came to pass! my dad is a christian now, serving God in His house Hallelujah! only God can do it!! Praise de Lord amen!! heee

i hereby write down my dream lest i forgot =P..tat is to see my entire family, my loved ones, my frens, pp whom God has/is goin to put in my path saved!! so tat i can still continue to see them for eternity in heaven!!! yeah yeah :o)

Dear God, pls keep my heart soft, to ve Your same passion, love for pp salvation...to always rely on Yr strength n pray for pp's salvation...tat i wld never bcomin "unfeelin" 2wards pp passin on, not to "ignore" or not take up any opportunity tat U ve provided to share christ w pp...Lord, U ve given n made me who i m today, wout U i m nothin, Lord, ps use me to touch pp lives, to bring them all into Your kingdom n enjoy de abundant life n blessings U ve given to us amen!! :o)

thank u God for everythin :)
feelin much better now..hee..goin to zzzz...

voooom vooommmm and away =p

sidetracking...

haa...i realise i ve never realli pen down my personal tot n feelings on my blog...

was realli inspired by what i ve read from my hope brisbane friends' blogs tat i tot i shld pen down my life experiences n walk w God as well so tat i can still remember them as days gone by :o)

[ Joy] http://joyingod.blogspot.com
[ Kevin ] http://therealmok.blogspot.com
[ Jia Yen ] http://jehovahrah.blogspot.com

it has been rather unhappening in office these days...
nobody realli has de mood to work as de prospect of moa closing down is realli bcomin real...
been trying hard to find/work, didnt want to juz waste time
realli hope tat de mgt can tell us what/when its goin to happen...

its realli/goin to be a year of change, in church, spiritual walk, at wk n in status!
i m goin to get married dis yr!!
never realli tot i was actualli goin to get married n set up a family....but its happening & i m happy n very thankful n lookin 4ward to married life w dear2 (though w fear n trembling too haa) =) but we both believe w God's grace, we can make it!! yeah! :)

i realli wan to grow in God dis yr, stronger n deeper in my relp w Him, been a slacker too much n too long...
i kept asking myself wat isit tat i wld wan to hear or be remembered as when i pass on from dis earth...cos wat i ll die for is also wat i ll live for....oni when i know what/where my destination is going to be, only can i choose the path to walk/take
n i realise my life would onli truly be purposeful, meaningful & impactful when i choose to live / walk in obedience in God's way, fulfilling His great commision n de purpose He has for me :o) any other way/s would be chasing after de wind, unsatisfying, unlasting...

i wanted to b remembered as someone who had loved God n pp, wholeheartedly and feverently, one who had made a difference in pp's lives...somebody who ve left behind a legacy n who will b missed :) n of cos, someone who has brought joy into their lives haaa ^.^

God! pls help me to discover the purpose and destiny You have for me,
to grow, to touch lives n to shine for U every day, in every way of my life on earth :o)

thank God for de good weather 29 Dec 06 :o)

its a happy family =p

2 sheeps, 1 duck and 1 hippo

fishy LCD screen???

masterpiece of ms Karen Chen & Diana Toh :)

close up shot of Nemo (from Nemo) and Abby (from Chicken Little) w de "oceanus" background and "fluffy" seabed =p

pls bring me home ...

i promise i will b good n not eat de fishes in de tank meoooow =p

Our family has grown!! - 9 Jan 07

My 表弟 and 表弟夫 :o)

us with them yeah!

my wishes

sang phleg feelin abit mel...

i wish ( not in order ) ...

everyone ard me includin myself can b happy always
healin for dear2 n myself
for gift of healing
i can b gd at my job
dear2 n i ve a place of our own
for twins (a boy n girl)
dear2 can fulfill all his dreams in God
i can find / discover a dream in God tat is BIGGER than myself =p
grands' salvation n more time w them
entire family to come to know de Lord
i can learn to say NO wout feelin guilty
i can b a woman after God's heart and true worshipper of God (in spirit n in truth)
a closer walk w God
i can b a gd helper to dear2, gd daughter to my parents, gd granddaughter to my grands, gd worker to MOA, gd frens to all, gd shepherd to my sheeps, gd steward of God, gd teacher of God's Word to cell & sawangers kids, gd influence to all tat God has placed in my path ( i realise i m a perfectionist here)
cell wld be on fire for God, individuals to step up & raise up
closer bonds, commitment & sense of belonging in cell
my beloved frens can all find happiness
for more consideration/thoughtfulness for others, sincerity, truthfulness, love amongst pp
i can b neater
i can b more energetic
my dark eye rings n eye bags can go away
ve more time to sleep
ve an easier time in finding apparrel
can make up better
i can speed read
for better memory
better finanicial sense
travel & live in other parts of de world
i will never feel mel..

tat all my wishes come true.... heee

our first ...

15th Nov 2006

our first time cooking 2gether ( dinner )

wasnt planned, didnt had an excellent day but juz tot of doin it
( wanted to bless auntie n dear2 n to try out how it feels to b a housewife, prob would b doin tat if we ve our own hse ) =p was fun...hee

dishes attempted and precious tips fr auntie who so graciously lended out her kitchen n stomach for de food =p

1) scrambled eggs w anchovives
drained n fried de small fishes 1st to give it de crispy feel
if there ingredients portion r alot, should do a few cookings instead of doing it all once,
in order to create de thin n crisp feel

2) xiao bai chai
should cook it w oil and water 1st
fried de garlic w oyster sauce
sprinkled de cooked veg w cold tap water to retain color
pour de cooked garlic w sauce over de veg

3) fried fish/chicken nuggets
use more oil
cook w small fire first ( big fire might cause de outside to be burnt while de inside might still b raw )

hope to do better next time :o)
muz rem to take pics of our dishes n
find a nice day to do it...so tat we can all enjoy de process better :o)
or probably, juz do it alone next time... ( though i realli enjoyed team wk, but dun wan 2 n cant bear to make dear2 do anyting tat he doesnt enjoy - except eat food tat is gd for him haaa.. love muz b kind )
try to 'sai co' ah mus to lend me her kitchen ( muz cook for my dear ah mus )
she has been such a great mum! thank God for her!! :o)

watch a bit of 'gong wo de ye man wang fei' and did abit of weddin stuff after dinner...

then took a slow walk home w dear2,
dear2 was v sweet to help me carry my heavy bag ( felt bad abt his bruised shoulder )
had a gd chat abt wat happened at wk ( stressful but thank God for providence thru jobs )
our struggles, fear, hope, encouragement for de future :o)

thank God for everything at all times :o)
time to zzz @.@