confusing de fish =p

Thanksgiving :o)

God's promise came to pass on the 22nd may 07 :o)

not so long ago, was feeling quite down and disheartened at not being able to find a job after leaving MOA for so long...most of my colleagues ve already found jobs in large companies

at times i wonder if it was silly to reject de offer by de head office, but i remember de voice i heard in me to move on, that God has something better in store for me ... i juz need to step out in faith ...it didnt make sense to let go of an available opening but past experiences has taught me tat i m always more blessed when i obey God & i didnt want to lose out de greater blessing that God has in store for me :o) so i rejected head office offer much to de surprise of my bosses (who r v nice pp) and to my own too...
it was so tough trying to get my head and my heart to be in sync (de spirit is willing but de flesh is weak gee)

thank God for dear dear who has been a great encourager & helper, who sent me jobs listing everyday for me to apply, for being so patient & comforted me that it was ok to rest for awhile ^.^

now looking back de short break was a blessing in disguise,
it gave me more time to prepare for de wedding :)
(which should be de priority in comparison to a job)

during de jobless period,
i actually had de chance to discover more about myself...
how i had valued myself based on de job i ve,
how lost i felt wout a job, which revealed to me that i hadnt really place my sense of worth & security in God... :(
how an uninteresting, unmotivated life i ve wout a job...
(i didnt know wat to do with my free time, much to de envy of my dear dear haa)

how small i actually felt in my own eyes
when i looked at the requirements of advertised jobs and my lack of experience in many of the areas, i begin to feel tat i wasnt as good as de others in de field, ...almost to de stage of deression ...i wonder if i should just give up IT and do someting else

thank God for jasmine, a wonderful cousin who helped pray for me & reminded me that an idle mind is de devil's playground...tat i so need to hang on to God & His Word despite all de "troubles" of life...

i started to be more serious in my job finding, went to de agents w rach, though all mentioned tat my resume was gd, but nothing concrete or interviews were being arranged...

i remembered crying out to God during cell's pnw, why isit tat though many ve assured me tat i was gd, yet still i couldnt find a job..wat is wrong w me??? why hasnt i found a job yet...

God's reply to my cry was almost instanteous, He impressed upon my heart these words..it is not going to be by your wisdom or knowledge or capability tat u r going to find a job, it will be ME providing a job for you...

wow!!! i was juz awed by God's reply...i realise tat all along, i had trusted in my own abilities, capabilities to find a job..God was teachin me to trust in Him

Zechariah 4:6
So he said to me, "This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: 'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,' says the LORD Almighty.

my down trodden spirit was immediately calmed by God's reply...
no more questioning, cos i ve heard God and He has given me His promise :o)

i actualli didnt realli try to look for job after tat cos was trying to concentrate on wedding preps (& since God said He was going to be de one who will provide =P )..

then one fine day, an ex-colleague sms me, another yahoo me asking me if i was interested in a job lobang..

to cut de long story short...

i submitted my resume, was called for an interview,
committed all de boos boos & taboos in de interview,
yet i got de job!!! in a BIG company!!! how amazing is that!!!

i was trying to find a job for de longest time, on my own & i failed..
i didnt seek for this job, yet it found me ;o)

how else could this ve happened except by de hand of God???

i was reminded of God's promise to me tat cell nite,
"I will give u a job" ....i was totally totally awed & amazed...
God has been so gracious to me once again ^.^
i am just so thankful to Him tat i want to start blogging it down,
every good tings tat He has done for me, in my life heee

so yes!!! i ll be starting work again on 1st June 07!! yippe!! heee

^.*

er ...

a different way of looking at things =)

fav song @ de moment ^.*

简单爱 ^.^ *.*

说不上为什么
我变得很主动
若爱上一个人
什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布
对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到
我现在的感受

河边的风
在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手
一阵莫名感动
我想带你
回我的外婆家
一起看着日落
一直到我们都睡着

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧
唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活
我爱你你爱我

想简!简!单!单!爱...
想简!简!单!单!爱...

周杰倫

God's recipe :o)

知己知彼，百战百胜 :o)

Summary

ESTHER POH, your responses indicate that you are a very friendly, warm, and calm individual. You use persuasion to influence people and do not make unnecessary demands upon them. If you are called upon to delegate both authority and details, you do so with ease. When you are dealing with an idea or project, you prefer to focus on its overall substance rather than on its specific details. Too much structure or too many rules is not appealing to you. Since you enjoy interacting with people, it follows that you are highly effective in activities involving them.

Communication Style

ESTHER POH, you have strong social skills and are excellent at quickly establishing rapport. You enjoy talking to people and do so with enthusiasm and spontaneity. Your style of fast, lively expression is both engaging and effective. You are a fluent speaker who expresses thoughts quickly, optimistically, and persuasively.

Also, ESTHER POH, you use a diplomatic tone in order to work peacefully with people. You do not intimidate others and, in turn, you do not appreciate verbal intimidation.

You enjoy talking and can put people at ease. You use a fun, indirect style of communication. You are people-oriented and can easily relate with another person's point of view.

ESTHER POH, you are a natural team player. You readily delegate authority, and you embrace training. You do not care to be involved with too many technical details. You let others set game plans, priorities and time frames.You function well when you are allowed a lot of people-interaction. You would rather talk about details than write them down. You enjoy being the focus of attention.

Leadership Style

Leadership Style: Persuasive You perform your leadership role by using your fine ability to interpret people's actions and dialogue, and then by persuading them to do things your way. You like to build team spirit and rely upon team decisions. You develop your subordinates, and you delegate both authority and details. You actively promote change and like to find new ways of reaching goals.

Conscientiousness

You may tend to work more diligently at those tasks that are most interesting to you. You may place more emphasis on satisfying your personal needs than on achieving traditional goals and accomplishments. It is possible that personal anxieties or emotions may have a negative impact on your work. You may prefer to work at your own pace, rather than follow someone else's fixed schedule.

Motivational Needs

ESTHER POH, you tend to be motivated by a great deal of interaction with people, and by identifying with a prestigious organization with a good public image. You desire opportunities to make more money for yourself, or to improve your status within the organization. You are motivated by praise, public recognition, and by acceptance. You are most productive when working as a team player, and when you are liked by others.You tend to be demotivated if your territory or opportunity is reduced in size, or if you are not allowed a significant amount of people-interaction or teamwork. Insufficient recognition from management and/or peers can also affect your motivation. You can be demotivated by a perception of not being personally liked, and by not being invited to meetings with peers.

Primary Motivators

• A lot of interaction with people.

• Meeting new people and making friends.

• Opportunities to make more money and improve status.

• Being a team player within the organization.

• Praise and public recognition.

• Identifying with an organization that has prestige and a good public image.

• Awareness of what is going on in the organization.

• Acceptance and being liked by others.

Primary Demotivators

• You perceive you are not liked.

• You are not invited into meetings with your peers.

• Your territory, (opportunity) is reduced in size.

• You feel you are not part of the team.

• You do not have enough people contact.

Emotional Intelligence

ESTHER POH, your responses indicate that you tend to understand the emotional makeup of others, and to accurately sense what other people are feeling. In addition, you are able to attune your own style to the emotional reactions of others. Because you find it easy to see the world from another person's perspective, it is likely that you associate with a diverse group of people.

http://dintl.drakeprofile.com/intl3/index_dl.cfm?OfficeID=417

a very interactive book club ... haaa =p

de secret is ??? ... a secret haa =p

Deuteronomy 29:29
The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children for ever, that we may follow all the words of this law.

a pic that reminds me of my dearest family n all de closest frens i ve =)

Thank God for all of You !!!

Thank U for alzix being around !!!

U r de Best !!! ^.^

a pic that reminds me of the Heavenly Father & i :o)

I love You Dad !!!

U r de Very Best !!! muach!!! BIG hug !!! hee

save de earth !!!

yeah!! i am normal haa =p

You Date Like a Woman

According to studies on dating, you date like a woman. You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling. A mental and emotional connection always comes first for you. And rushing the physical stuff is likely to turn you off. You're highly selective when it comes to dating, and some may say you're too picky. You know what you want, and when you find it, you're ready to commit.

Do You Date Like a Man or a Woman?

My Learning Style - woo i never knew tat =p

You Are a Kinetic Learner

You learn best by doing, and you have a talent for complicated, physical tasks. You excel at athletics, drama, and fixing things. You would be an excellent Olympic athlete - or a Broadway star!

What's Your Learning Style?

My Five Factor Personality Test - quite accurate :)

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is low. You're a pretty conservative person, and you favor what's socially acceptable. You think that change for novelty's sake is a very bad idea. While some may see this as boring, many see you as dependable and wise.

The Five Factor Personality Test

rush to rest ...

Come to Me [Jesus], all you

who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened,

and I will cause you to rest.

[I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls.]

~ Matthew 11:28 ~

Wedding Invite :o)

upset :(

i m upset w vista!!! it looks cool but it juz doesnt work well w others, not even w members fr its own family...ggrrrr...
when did they launch it when de world is not ready for it yet!! ahh...help!!!

it's so difficult getting it to work w de existin hardware n softwares...even w all de drivers update
n it wouldnt allow me to save files, sayin tat admin rites are required wen i m logged on as de administrator!!! cant help feeling tat it tries to b clever n do too much tat it feels stupid :S

i rem xp was so much easier..literally plug n play...why is vista such a pain to configure???
well...to b fair, de improvement over xp wld b its quickness in ending tasks tat has hanged..not sure if tats gd or bad news..???

perhaps i shld seriously consider switchin to penguin or apple
realli hope to get my "trinity" up n running well soonz... :( i feel incapacitated wout my comp properly configured..

de frustration of tryin to get it to work properly...makes me juz wan to give up n zzzz...aggrhh...help :S

reflections fr a wake...

juz came back from meng's papa wake...

actualli dun realli know meng nor his papa well but we juz wanted to go support mitch n meng..

my impression of meng last time used to be tat he was a v non-serious, jokey kind of guy..was actualli quite worried for mitch..not sure if meng was a dependable guy...haaa...
but had a v different feelin 2wards him after we went to hospi to visit his dad the time when he was sick n still alive...

fr mitch sharing w us n observation at de hosp...discovered tat meng is actually a v responsible, v homely n fillial son, who doesnt give up lovin n caring for his dad who was paralysed n always had to be given much attn bcos of his medical condition...
such a carin n fillial son is hard n rare to find...underneath de "not seriousness"....i saw de fighter spirit n carin side of him tat day...could tell tat he really loved n cared for his dad alot alot...

according to mitch, he wld come fr wk each day, dropped his bag n go straight to check on his dad, to check on his parameters to make sure he was ok....chit chat w him (though his dad couldnt realli articulate except make groans bcos he was probably feelin uncomfy)..many a times, meng n family wld ve to guess (by trial n error) wat was causing his dad discomfort n they wld do anythin (eg shift his sleepin position) to make him more comfy...n his dad would actually calm down upon seein meng...

heard fr mitch tat meng papa was actualli a very strong spirited man too...tat his last words to meng (many yrs ago when he had a stroke n had to be operated, he cldnt realli talk anymore aft de op) when he was bein wheeled into op rm was...i will be strong...his dad was a fighter n he had "tong" so long..despite his imobility, sickness n all...i ve seen so many others whom simply give up on themselves n grown so independent on others n literally juz waitin for death to come...

so strong is the human fightin spirit to live n de ability to hang on bcos of family's love...truly i see love exhibited in de family ....in health n in sickness :)

i was realli amazed by meng patience n understandin of his father's needs though de dad cldnt really speak....to see him kissed his dad half sunken skull...i was deeply moved n secretly wished in my heart tat i had de same passion n compassion 2wards my parents (esp my dad) ..i certainly wasnt as carin to my dad as meng when he was sick in hosp (guilty)

after de visit, went home, occasionally tot of meng papa, wonderin if he was ok oradi but didnt went to visit him again...

was gettin ready for church dis morn, suddenly got a msg fr mitch tat meng papa has passed on...was sad n at same time worried abt how meng n his mum wld take it (cos dey were v closed to de dad)...it has been a tiring time for them...3 deaths in de family within such a short period...it is really not easy...

durin de wake, got to chat w mitch alittle, caught up on de old times, discuss abt venues for holidays n honeymoon..it was nice catchin up..enjoyin each other's company n supportin one another...

had alot of reflections...i was shocked to realised how unfeeling i ve bcome 2wards death of pp...one doesnt realli care much or feel de pain these days (cos it juz seem normal)...unless it happened to frens or closed one..even then, after awhile..de 'unfeeliness' creeps back...
God ps forgive me for de hardness of heart...de lack of passion, sorrow when i hear or see or know pp passing on wout knowin u...

suddenly realised & was convicted..tat...how much i ought to pray for de move of God in my life n in my family n frens lives...
tat i ought to treasure my folks at home more, not to take de pp ard me for granted tat dey wld always b there, not to tink tat there wld alwiz be "another" opportunity to share w them christ...cos there might never be...

i always feel de greatest sorrow.... is not de passing of someone i love or know...but tat he/her had passed on w/out knowing christ...cos tat wld mean i ve lost them for eternally... tat i wld never ever see them again...

tat tot is unbearable...n too painful to bear...de one time i felt tat pain...was in a dream tat i dreamt wen i was studying in down under..i had repeatedly asked God if i shld come back to sing or stay on aus...(every part of me wanted so much to stay in aus)
i prayed n prayed but for v long God didnt ans...He did not speak to me thru lightning n thunder..but He gave me a dream....i m dreamer haa...=p

i dreamt tat my dad actually died..i was home n i saw his tablet...he had died a non christian..
i rem i felt so so sad, so much sorrow tat i juz wept n wept..like i can never stop..
i felt so sorry tat i didnt get to see him for de last time b4 he passed on,
i was sorry tat i didnt share christ w him tat he didnt know God n he died.tat i had lost him forever...i regretted tat i didnt had de chance to tell him i love him n i was sorry we cldnt experience de lovin relp of father n daughter...i called him earlier next mornin juz to say "i love you dad" tink he was pretty pleasantly surprised to hear tat fr me...haaa

before de dream...i never tot i had realli loved my dad...i always tot i loved him cos i ve to ..cos he is my father..but after i woke up fr de dream...i realise i do love him deeply...n God ans to me was to come back to sing...cos i ve to share w my dad n loved ones!!!

i obeyed n believed w all my heart..my dad wld b saved!! he has to be!! i held God to His promise.. in Acts 16;31 "Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved—you and your household." i dun noe why, but God juz gave me tremendous faith to believe in tat & God is faithful n de promise came to pass! my dad is a christian now, serving God in His house Hallelujah! only God can do it!! Praise de Lord amen!! heee

i hereby write down my dream lest i forgot =P..tat is to see my entire family, my loved ones, my frens, pp whom God has/is goin to put in my path saved!! so tat i can still continue to see them for eternity in heaven!!! yeah yeah :o)

Dear God, pls keep my heart soft, to ve Your same passion, love for pp salvation...to always rely on Yr strength n pray for pp's salvation...tat i wld never bcomin "unfeelin" 2wards pp passin on, not to "ignore" or not take up any opportunity tat U ve provided to share christ w pp...Lord, U ve given n made me who i m today, wout U i m nothin, Lord, ps use me to touch pp lives, to bring them all into Your kingdom n enjoy de abundant life n blessings U ve given to us amen!! :o)

thank u God for everythin :)
feelin much better now..hee..goin to zzzz...

voooom vooommmm and away =p